Today i noticed something that made me start to ask myself questions. To doubt my very own wonderful self (in the past i would have felt blue all day) but i have learnt that in life you never really please everyone, you can only do your best to satisfy your christian conscience.
In a bid to find answers today i have asked my colleague and my dear cousin if what has happened has anything to do with me or was caused by me (i know i have a strong and determined/ dodged spirit that has kept me going and strong and enabled me to strive as a loner lost in thoughts of my own and a life/heart full enough to explode, yet i keep smiling.) Both have assured me that all is well, only hitch they say is that i strive too hard for perfection. Life is easy i shouldn't take things too seriously.
So in a strange twist of faith i started to count my blessings as these words came to me just like in Temmy's post - i am fearfully and wonderfully made. A perfect and chosen generation. I am unique and there is nothing i or anybody or what anybody thinks of me can do about it. I am not under condemnation, i am somebody in Christ. I am a wonder and still am , I am just like my FATHER - everything.
I have so so much to be thankful for -
From Abundance - to satisfied then to homelessness (a horrible experience i don't wish anyone at all) - Then now to a home i can decorate and call my own.
From loneliness, sadness and confusion - to looking forward to getting out of bed in the morning.
From Joblessness & dissatisfaction - to my faithful job in Aa
From Lavish spending and serious wasting - to pennylessness - to my own personal savings and priorities.
I have a devoted and selfless DH, My wonderful, supporting always ever present and faithful sisters, My loving Dad, Mum, cousins, friends and pals.
There's just too too much. I cant continue to count my blessings. He has set things straight in my life and am grateful. Looking back now i know that everything happened for a reason and in all things i have learnt to give thanks. God has a perfect plan for everyone.
I am consoled with the fact that no one deserves to be unhappy because of another.
There's a Total woman talk show on fashion and style, ur home,etc happening tomorrow at the Muson centre, presented by House on the Rock. I intend to be there life and direct, seeing it's a freebie. To register call 01 - 4614120.
Have a great weekend.